Do you know what comes up when you type the word "perfect" into Google search? The drop down suggestion list number one search as "perfect body". Do you know what images come up in that search? Ones like this ----->

I was always told that you can obtain a body like that with good 'ol diet and exercise. Well, I exercised in high school and elementary/middle school and my diet was always decided by my parents, what they ate I ate.

I don't have a body like that. I know diet and exercise will help and I have tried but like everything else in my life I failed at it. So maybe that's why I'm doing this. So that someone can help me, can push me, can do this with me so I don't feel alone and so that I can turn to someone when I feel I'm failing again.

I want that perfect body. But I can't do it alone. I need help, advise, tips. I'm at the point where I will do anything to look like that. If there is someone out there who can help me please, I'm begging you, help me. I don't have the money to join a gym, actually I was part of one and had to quit because I lost my job and can't afford it. I am so sick of being the fat one that is both ignored and gawked at. I'm sick of not being as attractive as my friends. I'm sick of spending hours at malls not finding anything that fits my fat ass. I just want, for once in my life, to be like every other girl. I want to be pretty, I want to be skinny, I want to be perfect.